Wednesday, March 18, 2009

A Little Bit Older

I am now listening to this song playing over and over :

Last Words by The Real Tuesday Weld

Over Elkin Avenue
The helium balloon, disappears into the sky
You give some money to a junkie
Watch as the sunny day drifts by
Can't tell you why
These are the last words
I'll say them to you
These are the last words
I'll say them to you
You said you loved me
And I kind of believe that
But these days who knows what it means
So we sat by the laundry mat with magazines and cigarettes
Talked about a million other things
These are the last words
I'll say them to you
These are the last words
I'll say them to you
Last night I dreamt that somebody had died
And it was one of us
I did the biggest thing that I could
But I was not enough
These are the last words
I will say to you.

So. It's been three months since I last blogged. Here I am, a little older, a little more bumped and bruised and scarred, and hopefully a little wiser.

Career wise, I'm back at a job I love that doesn't quite love me back as much, financially. Starbucks is an awesome place to work, and I have lovely fantastic coworkers who make every day a new adventure. Right now we are ALL battling a nasty flu bug, and infecting each other, and it IS a challenge trying to serve coffee while repressing a cough and holding down phlegm while smiling broadly at a customer. And still they come back, some of them 3 times a day for their caffeine fix, because they know that we are there.

Heart-wise - let's not go there. Let's just say I've still got so many things to figure out, and I am right now not in any shape to be in a relationship. It hurts but it's true. Plus I doubt if I'll be able to sustain any relationship while living at home with my parents. Seriously.

Well. It's another day tomorrow. I can honestly say I have never been this depressed in my life, and my emo side is showing. Still, it can only get better. It has to.

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